Stryker wrote:I find it amazing that Ironfoot actually quit the forum over
that.
He hasn't posted anything ever since.
hui43210 wrote:I only saw that exchange now after the bump, I can't stop laughing! I know its the internet, but to take such a seemingly harmless post so personally is absurdly hilarious.
I decided to log in and answer this little shaming charade now, since I have changed drastically since last posing here. I don't care about this being from the past, as time to me is not linear.
At the time, it was a combination of two things. The first was a struggling self esteem issue which sought to artificially create self destructive behaviors and manifestations. Working 6 days a week in a job with little to no advancement at the time played into this considerably. The second thing, which I later realized was that I was not compatible with the larger community. While I still love Evangelion, the community at the time did not resonate with myself, which had begun to shift in any case. This ensured that I did not return for a great length of time. I had already found other people to talk with in any case. Now that I see what happened after I left, I feel that I made the right choice.
However, after seeing that the forum finally upgraded after nearly a decade of calls to do so, I felt that I should also put this matter to rest. Yes, at the time I should of remembered that pairing existed since the show's inception. Yes, you may think I'm taking this too seriously. However, that is because I left a negative legacy of myself at this place (frankly I was an idiot), and while it served to help motivate me to become a better person, I feel that such negativity should be at the very least neutralized despite whatever opinions may arise from this.
So, my bad. I took it too personally, there was little I could do at the time, but it was for the best since I am not that shallow of a person and needed to move in a better direction. Thanks for reading.
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