EGF's House of Lonely Hearts

[robersora]

Just be careful your Kaworu isn't actually an Akio.

I really wouldn't mind going down that road for some passionate fabulousness... before my actual Kaworu shows up of course.

[Vegeta 20XX]

[Moved from the FML thread due to relevancy]

This bounces around a bit towards the end, but I'm sick and emotionally be-turmoil'd, so I communicate my RL gripes thusly:

SPOILER: Show

The last time I posted about this, I immediately deleted it out of fear of my ex spreading word of it to my friends, but being sick and having a paranoid fear of dying on a whim overruled that precaution today - perhaps because I actually WANT others to know about it, putting it out of my control, removing the burden of hiding such intense emotions and keeping dire secrets. It's also starting to negatively impact my relations with my friends on my end - I've become more dour of mood, and regard anyone close to me with unending suspicion of knowing about it. I've considered simply telling them up front more and more each day, even if it leaves me homeless and hated.

I can't break my fixation on my friend's ex-GF, which is becoming increasingly problematic - it surprises me that no one notices just how much my body language betrays me, or at least won't make any mention of it. The big issue, however, is that, as far as I can tell, the friend and ex are starting to draw back together, certainly aided by his former roommate playing matchmaker to get the extra expense out of his house, which:

*Cuts my income three ways instead of two (since both the friend and I got fired, all we have is my check), assuming she moves in with him

*Seats me with these feelings long into the foreseeable future, all while I hang out with the frequently and sleep next to his/their room (depending on ex-RM's success), with all of the implications that brings.

My feelings are, as far as I understand, unnoticed, and I haven't really socialized with the friend's ex very much in this time, out of fear of drawing suspicion and potentially revealing how I truly feel to someone who may not reciprocate (or even revile me for suggesting such). I don't even feel worthy of this person, that I don't deserve someone so bloody enchanting and delightful, and I hate myself for fostering these emotions and allowing them to become my main focus - holding them in will be painful for as long as I do so, but revealing my secret will destroy most if not all of my friendships and potentially alienate her forever.

I've begun to develop hatred for my friend, even though I have no business hating someone for patching things up with someone who he's known far longer than I have, a burning hate for one alongside unyielding infatuation for another. I've come to hate what I've become over my life - I don't do anything meaningful for anyone anymore, and feel increasingly isolated from the reality I've known for so long. I'm always afraid of SOMETHING - usually health related, but my other concerns poke in from time to time.

[NemZ]

Ditch the leeches, get your own space and stop obsessing in secret.

[Shinoyami65]

[Moved from the FML thread due to relevancy]

This bounces around a bit towards the end, but I'm sick and emotionally be-turmoil'd, so I communicate my RL gripes thusly:

SPOILER: Show

The last time I posted about this, I immediately deleted it out of fear of my ex spreading word of it to my friends, but being sick and having a paranoid fear of dying on a whim overruled that precaution today - perhaps because I actually WANT others to know about it, putting it out of my control, removing the burden of hiding such intense emotions and keeping dire secrets. It's also starting to negatively impact my relations with my friends on my end - I've become more dour of mood, and regard anyone close to me with unending suspicion of knowing about it. I've considered simply telling them up front more and more each day, even if it leaves me homeless and hated.

I can't break my fixation on my friend's ex-GF, which is becoming increasingly problematic - it surprises me that no one notices just how much my body language betrays me, or at least won't make any mention of it. The big issue, however, is that, as far as I can tell, the friend and ex are starting to draw back together, certainly aided by his former roommate playing matchmaker to get the extra expense out of his house, which:

*Cuts my income three ways instead of two (since both the friend and I got fired, all we have is my check), assuming she moves in with him

*Seats me with these feelings long into the foreseeable future, all while I hang out with the frequently and sleep next to his/their room (depending on ex-RM's success), with all of the implications that brings.

My feelings are, as far as I understand, unnoticed, and I haven't really socialized with the friend's ex very much in this time, out of fear of drawing suspicion and potentially revealing how I truly feel to someone who may not reciprocate (or even revile me for suggesting such). I don't even feel worthy of this person, that I don't deserve someone so bloody enchanting and delightful, and I hate myself for fostering these emotions and allowing them to become my main focus - holding them in will be painful for as long as I do so, but revealing my secret will destroy most if not all of my friendships and potentially alienate her forever.

I've begun to develop hatred for my friend, even though I have no business hating someone for patching things up with someone who he's known far longer than I have, a burning hate for one alongside unyielding infatuation for another. I've come to hate what I've become over my life - I don't do anything meaningful for anyone anymore, and feel increasingly isolated from the reality I've known for so long. I'm always afraid of SOMETHING - usually health related, but my other concerns poke in from time to time.

If you really are so negative about it, don't believe that you are worthy of her and have very little chance of getting with her in the first place because she's getting back with her old BF, then it may be best to let this one go. Like NemZ said, try and get your own space so you don't have to deal with them on a regular basis.

[Nuclear Lunchbox]

I need a friend that would be down with platonic cuddling. Maybe I should buy a Dakimakura.

I GOT PLATONIC CUDDLE TIME LAST WEEK

Still lonely, but it really helped. Like, a lot.

[Chuckman]

Your dakimakura waifu will never play with your hair and eat pancakes with you.

[CJD]

Your dakimakura waifu will never play with your hair and eat pancakes with you.

I don't want to feel these feels anymore. ;_____;

[TheFriskyIan]

Is there any subtle way of showing a girl I'm interested? There's a coworker I like that I've been able to get to talk to more and more, and I'm 99.99% she is single but I really don't want to be blunt and ask her out after we've only known each other for a few days out of the last three weeks.

[Chuckman]

Be blunt and ask her out. Fuck subtle.

@CJD you will wake up tomorrow without a trap snuggled lovingly against you to soak up your warmth.

[Catamari]

Is there any subtle way of showing a girl I'm interested? There's a coworker I like that I've been able to get to talk to more and more, and I'm 99.99% she is single but I really don't want to be blunt and ask her out after we've only known each other for a few days out of the last three weeks.

NOPE.

Here's what you do.

1) Approach her and make sure she is facing you.
2) Remove your pants without breaking eye contact.
3) Turn around, but keep your eyes locked.
4) Twerk.

Guaranteed success.


Or, you know, you could just talk to her. I mean, that's what I did throughout high school and I'm not dead.

[Chuckman]

NOPE.

Here's what you do.

1) Approach her and make sure she is facing you.
2) Remove your pants without breaking eye contact.
3) Turn around, but keep your eyes locked.
4) Twerk.

Guaranteed success.

Lock eyes from across the room

Or, you know, you could just talk to her. I mean, that's what I did throughout high school and I'm not dead.

The female species often responds to uninvited verbal signals by spraying its stomach acid at the male. The males that survive this acid bath survive to mate and thus strengthen the species.

[Catamari]

Lock eyes from across the room

Down my drink while the rhythms boom.

The female species often responds to uninvited verbal signals by spraying its stomach acid at the male. The males that survive this acid bath survive to mate and thus strengthen the species.

Natural Selection, hard at work.


But seriously, Ian. It's not difficult. It feels difficult and fuck knows it's awkward, but you get used to it.

[Reiggae]

I've already said before that I'm interested in a girl who turned out to be a lesbian. Well, I went to her house recently and I found out that right after I left her father told her that she should start dating boys (obviously talking about me). She went on this huge twitter-rant about how no one understands her and how she will never date boys. Sucks.
I should probably find someone else, but she's the only girl I know who shares a lot of my interests (hopefully she's not registered on this forum, that'll be awkward).

[Chuckman]

However, she does not share one very important interest.

That interest is penis.

[Catamari]

I know that situation all too well, Reiggae. There was this really fucking beautiful girl in my chem class in high school. I mean, everything is perfectly proportioned, great skin, nice hair. Sharp as a tack, too. Loved anime, video games.

But then I learned that she was a hardline lesbian - no negotiation, completely uninterested in men.

That was the day that I learned the world was not fair.

We still talk and hang out, at least. So there's that.

[TheFriskyIan]

Or, you know, you could just talk to her. I mean, that's what I did throughout high school and I'm not dead.

I talk to her every time I get the chance, I just have a huge fear of escalating things.

[Chuckman]

I'm over here pining for a third gender watching you guys boohoo because one girl doesn't want dick.

Not being interested in you sexually because of her orientation is no better or worse than not being interested for any other reason.

That said I am of the opinion that you can't really be friends with someone you find very attractive because your brain will never stop trying to get you to maneuver them into fucking you. It leads to awkwardness or sadness or both.

They always know, too. It's even more awkward if she's your boss...

@FriskyIan

Next time you're talking to her and you decide not to make an over, clearly articulated indication that you're interested in maybe seeing her socially and developing a romantic relationship I want you to remember: What is the riddle of steel

[Catamari]

I'm over here pining for a third gender watching you guys boohoo because one girl doesn't want dick.

Not being interested in you sexually because of her orientation is no better or worse than not being interested for any other reason.

That's not quite the point I was making. It's that her being a lesbian negates any chances I may have otherwise had. You can generally work around things, but sexual orientation is the big one that can't really be avoided and it tells you "Give up, now, no use trying."

[Chuckman]

Yeah, and? Go after one of the other three billion girls

Remember the words of the prophet: Shit happens, and then you pie.

[Catamari]

That's exactly what I did. I'm in a happy and fulfilling relationship, now.

I mean, shit, that was four years ago. I'm not bitching that I couldn't get her, I'm sharing a story of one of my more relevant failures.