Well, it's that time again.
This one makes me think of Misato after...*
ahem*...a few too many. Maybe a scene out of her life years before the series?
I really don't know what I'm doing here
I really think i should've gone to bed tonight, but
Just one drink
And there's some people to meet you
I think that you'll like them
I have to say we do
And I promise in less than an hour, we will honestly go
Now why don't I just get you another
While you just say hello?
Yeah, just say hello...
So I'm clutching it tight
Another glass in my hand
And my mouth and the smiles
Moving up as I stand up
Too close and too wide
And the smiles are too bright
And I breathe in too deep
And my head's getting light
But the air is getting heavier and it's closer
And I'm starting to sway
And the hands on all my shoulders don't have names
And they won't go away
So here I go
Here I go again...
Falling into strangers
And it's only just eleven
And I'm staring like a child
Until someone slips me heaven
And I take it on my knees
Just like a thousand times before
And I get transfixed
That fixed
And I'm just looking at the floor
Just looking at the floor
Yeah, I look at the floor...
And I'm starting to laugh
Like an animal in pain
And I've got blood on my hands
And I've got hands in my brain
And the first short retch
Leaves me gasping for more
And I stagger over screaming
On my way to the floor
And I'm back on my back
With the lights and the lies in my eyes
And the color and the music's too loud
And my head's all the wrong size
So here I go
Here I go again...
Yeah, I laugh and I jump
And I sing and I laugh
And I dance and I laugh
And I laugh and I laugh
And I can't seem to think
Where this is
Who I am
Why I'm keeping this going
Keep pouring it out
Keep pouring it down
And the way the rain comes down hard
That's the way I feel inside...
I can't take it anymore
This it I've become
This is it like I get
When my life's going numb
I just keep moving my mouth
I just keep moving my feet
I say I'm loving you to death
Like I'm losing my breath
And all the smiles that I wear
And all the games that I play
And all the drinks that I mix
And I drink until I'm sick
And all the faces that I make
And all the shapes that I throw
And all the people I meet
And all the words that I know
Makes me sick to the heart
Oh, I feel so tired...
And the way the rain comes down hard
That's how I feel inside...
What comes to mind for this song is Misato and Kaji's past relationship. It's a real downer of a song, I tells ya.
He waits for her to understand
But she won't understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But he won't call anymore
He waits to hear her say
"Forgive"
But she just drops her pearl-black eyes
And prays to hear him say
"I love you"
But he tells no more lies
He waits for her to sympathize
But she won't sympathize at all
She waits all night to feel his kiss
But always wakes alone
He waits to hear her say
"Forget"
But she just hangs her head in pain
And prays to hear him say
"No more
I'll never leave again"
How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever
He waits for her to understand
But she won't understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But we won't call
He waits to hear her say
"Forgive"
But she just drops her pearl-black eyes
And prays to hear him say
"I love you"
But he tells no more lies
How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever
A song for post-EoE Shinji, perhaps?
I think I've reached that point
Where giving up and going on
Are both the same dead end to me
Are both the same old song
I think I've reached that point
Where every wish has come true
And tired disguised oblivion
Is everything I do
Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things
I think I've reached that point
Where all the things you have to say
And hopes for something more from me
Are just games to pass the time away
Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things
I think I've reached that point
Where every word that you write
Of every blood dark sea
And every soul black night
And every dream you dream me in
And every perfect free from sin
And burning eyes
And hearts on fire
Are just the same old song
Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things
I am none of these things
I am none of these things
Another 'fitting for Instrumentality' track.
As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting inner light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child
I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
Where do we go when we just don't know?
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold?
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing?
And when will we learn to control?
Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child
I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by
Where do we go when we just don't know?
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold?
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing?
And when will we learn to control?
Where do we go when we just don't know?
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold?
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing?
And when will we learn to control?
I need serenity
I need serenity
Hello, obligatory A/S song (although it's at least realistic this time).
Yeah
Cut off the bottoms of my feet
Make me walk on salt
Take me down to the police
Charge me with assault
Smile on her face
She does what she wants to me
That's right
She don't care what kind of wounds she's inflicting on me
And she don't care what color bruises that she's leaving on me
Cause she's got freedom in the 21st century
Alright
Listen
Two black gadgets in her hand, it's all she thinks about
No responsibility, no guilt or morals cloud her judgement
Smile on her face
She does what she damn-well please
Right
And she don't care what kind of things people used to do
And she don't care if what she does has an effect on you
Cause she's got freedom in the 21st century
Cut off the bottoms of my feet
Cut off the bottoms of my feet
Make me walk on salt
Make me walk on salt
Take me down to the police
Take me down to the police
This one doesn't make me think about Evangelion
per se, it actually reminds me of Eva forums (both here and past places I've been). You'll see the lines that I mean, I'll say that much.
It's been a long time, so long
There's only one life I know
(I know)
But, I have my own mind
I'll say so if it seems right
(Hey, rush out)
I see your warm face with the soft mouth
But it speaks something else
So I'll take my chances with the cast down
We can feel the air
Rush out, out from the center
Not like one side is any better
Stand up as they've been preaching
My best theory is already in me
(Already in me)
In me
(We can feel, we can feel the air rush out)
So many questions
And the answers come back unanswered
Let's hold the old script
It's a new twist
You can feel the air
Rush out, out from the center
Not like one side is any better
Stand up as they've been preaching
My best theory is already in me
(Already in me)
In a lonely real place
Neither part nor mistake
Not what you had with your time
My doubt seems fine, my true desire
My threat, my appetite
My true desire
I feel the air
Rush out, out from the center
Not like one side is any better
Stand up as they've been preaching
My best theory is already in me
Rush, out from the center
Not like one side is any better
Stand up as they've been preaching
My best theory is already in me
In me
Pick any number of disintegrating relationships in the series/movies, this one fits 'em all.
To share is to split
Things that used to be one
Become divided, being in halves
Violence turns into fear
Breath in duality, like twins start to feel
Those halves are developing well
My wounds are remainders
Painful as hell
Either one face each on one side
Like a wall in the heart
Like twins torn apart
Let's boost everybody's bonfire
Yeah, greater than one
For everyone
Don't hand down the blackness
Quizzical pig
Give up your loot
Too big for your boots
Coming together
Falling apart
To share is to split
Come on
Come on, let's be split
To share is to split
Come on, let us split
Find out the way that it feels
Structures fall to pieces
Deny your ideals
Bury the earth
Let's take every nation
Systems struggle
Borders fall
Shake the foundation
Coming together
Falling apart
To share is to split
To share is to split
Come on, let us split
Both halves are developing well
My wounds are remainders
Painful as hell
Either one face each on one side
Like a wall in the heart
Like twins torn apart
I mentioned in the 'Songs on repeat' thread that this one had been in my head for a few days. It's really fitting for Shinji's mindset, I think (maybe the other Children, too). Of particular note are the "
blue shine" and "
red views" lines, don'tcha think?
Time
It's never worth my time
Blue shine
Bleeds into my eyes
I still
Sleep on the right side
Of the white noise
Can't leave the scene behind
Could I be anything you want me to be?
It's always meant to be seen
When you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Can you fall asleep with a panic switch?
And when you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Do you think she'll sleep with the panic...
Mm, I'll try
To hold on tight tonight
Pink slip
Inviting me inside
Wanna burn skin
And brand what once was mine
But the red views
Keep ripping the divide
If I go everywhere you want me to go
How will I know you'll still follow?
When you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Can you fall asleep with a panic switch?
And when you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Do you think she'll sleep with the panic...
I'm waiting and fading and floating away
I'm waiting and fading and floating away
I'm waiting and fading and floating away
Waiting and fading and floating
I'm waiting and fading and floating away
Waiting and fading and floating away
Waiting and fading and floating away
Waiting and fading, waiting and fading
When you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Can you fall asleep with a panic switch?
And when you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
Will you step in line or release the glitch?
Do you think she'll sleep with the panic...
And now, for the lighter side of Instrumentality...
Lost my shape
Trying to act casual
Can't stop
I might end up in the hospital
I'm changing my shape
I feel like an accident
They're back
To explain their experience
Isn't it weird?
Looks too obscure to me
Wasting away
And that was their policy
I'm ready to leave
I push the fact in front of me
Facts lost
Facts are never what they seem to be
Nothing there
No information left of any kind
Lifting my head
Looking for danger signs
There was a line
There was a formula
Sharp as a knife
Facts cut a hole in us
There was a line
There was a formula
Sharp as a knife
Facts cut a hole in us
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
The feeling returns
Whenever we close out eyes
Lifting my head
looking around inside
The island of doubt
It's like the taste of medicine
Working by hindsight
Got the message from the oxygen
Making a list
Find the cost of opportunity
Doing it right
Facts are useless in emergencies
The feeling returns
Whenever we close out eyes
Lifting my head
Looking around inside
Facts are simple and facts are straight
Facts are lazy and facts are late
Facts all come with points of view
Facts don't do what I want them to
Facts just twist the truth around
Facts are living turned inside out
Facts are getting the best of them
Facts are nothing on the face of things
Facts don't stain the furniture
Facts go out and slam the door
Facts are written all over your face
Facts continue to change their shape
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
And lastly: if there were ever a truer theme song for the younger Ikari, I don't know it.
Move yourself
You always live your life
Never thinking of the future
Prove yourself
You are the move you make
Take your chances, win or loser
See yourself
You are the steps you take
You and you, and that's the only way
Shake, shake yourself
You're every move you make
So the story goes
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Say you don't want to chance it
You've been hurt so before
Watch it now
The eagle in the sky
How he dancin', one and only
You lose yourself
No, not for pity's sake
There's no real reason to be lonely
Be yourself
Give your free will a chance
You've got to want to succeed
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
After my own decision
They confused me so
(Owner of a lonely heart)
My love said never question your will at all
In the end, you've got to go
Look before you leap
(Owner of a lonely heart)
And don't you hesitate at all, no no
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Sooner or later, each conclusion
Will decide the lonely heart
(Owner of a lonely heart)
It will excite it will delight
It will give a better start
(Owner of a lonely heart)
Don't deceive your free will at all
Don't deceive your free will at all
(Owner of a lonely heart)
Don't deceive your free will at all
Just receive it, just receive it
(Owner of a lonely heart)
I think that'll be enough for now (I would've put "Doll Parts" up with these, but someone beat me to that one quite a while back).
