FML general thread [8]

[silvermoonlight]

I just feel stupid sometimes because of my limited knowledge on how to get my insurance bills working for vision. And my mom ends up doing that because of how she’s better at that kind of stuff than I am.

And given my reputation here, and possibly some other forum sites, I just feel a total dumbass, and people are apparently right about that fact. I have no college degree or anything, just a high school diploma. And compared some others, I’m just a total dumbass. I guess it could be due to the fact I’m autistic that I’m so stupid, not mention me being a loser that I am.

In the end, I’m just a worthless nobody, with a low IQ to match.

Don't ever let anyone tell you, your stupid, don't believe that low IQ or lack of education is equal to nothing, everyone is worth something every one has value. There is a very dangerous rabbit hole you can end up going down where if you tell yourself you're a loser long enough you start to believe it and thus you become it.

I say this as someone who had a serious learning disability (Which got better as I got older) in my youth and was constantly told, you will not be able to do this or this because you have this and one day I got utterly sick of hearing this and realized I was being limited by the views of others. Don't let the views of others dictate your life based on your learning difficulty, be what you want to be, do what you want to do and carve your own path in life.

Plus so what if you miss the boat? Some people don't catch the boat along with every one else they catch the ferry coming in behind it.

[C5 Hurricane]

I think I lost a lot of my memories and my focus from covid. That and many of my interests including monster movies seems to be dead. Sort of sad I actually kept my promise from eight years ago, I never did manage to be happy.

[robersora]

I think I lost a lot of my memories and my focus from covid. That and many of my interests including monster movies seems to be dead. Sort of sad I actually kept my promise from eight years ago, I never did manage to be happy.

Are you referring to the lockdown-world of 2020 or did you get sick from Corona-Virus?
What promise did you make 8 years ago, to whom?

[FreakyFilmFan4ever]

I think I lost a lot of my memories and my focus from covid. That and many of my interests including monster movies seems to be dead. Sort of sad I actually kept my promise from eight years ago, I never did manage to be happy.

Sorry to hear about your experience with Covid, dude.

On monster movies, have you tried watching some of those monster movies in a different light? I know I decided to re-watch through all the Godzilla movies while noting all instances of religion or politics, and it reinvigorated my interest in the whole kaiju genre.

[robersora]

Oh, never mind my previous post... I clearly can't read
I'm so sorry to hear that you're not happy... I hope you will find happiness, don't give up!!

[C.T.1290]

I just hate myself right now, I really do.

I’d rather not discuss my problems on this topic.

[C5 Hurricane]

What promise did you make 8 years ago, to whom?

Eight years ago in August I promised myself I would never be happy again and I succeeded. There's no reason to hide it anymore. It's me, Twin Drive Sigma Aquarion. Yeah, I know this account is going to be banned as soon as you read that. Why wait all this time not saying anything? Simple, memory is deteriorating. Passions have dissolved. I kind of just consume mindlessly now. No focus. No drive. No care. I've become jaded. I figured I make a last nostalgia trip here remembering a time when I cared about much of anything. And I don't know what much to discuss here? Recent thoughts on Eva related stuff can be summed up as such: "3.0 was awesome but where are angel 11 and unit 07? Man that Wunder sure is an awesome ship, Adam has taste! So they recycled Unit 03 into a second Unit 01? Cool. NHK poll revealed 12th angel wasn't Armisael? Raguel seems like a fitting name, Kushiel and Othniel sure could use names though. Wow Anno, way to make the worst Godzilla movie and wow Gen Urobuchi for making a trilogy almost as bad. Wait, Gainax doesn't own Eva now? Hey, these FLCL sequels are way better than the first! Oh, they mass produced Unit 04! So Rebuild 4.0 might be time travel? Huh?"

have you tried watching some of those monster movies in a different light?

It's nice talking to you again. I did try this. I rewatched The Land Unknown back in July and it made me realize "I used to enjoy this and now I don't." It's the main reason I never rewatch things the vast majority of the time, I knew at some point it'd be bad for the movies and shows I used to enjoy. Same thing happened over the tokusatsu genre, I'm afraid to rewatch anything. I don't even enjoy anime anymore. I recently finally caved into peer pressure and gave Symphogear a shot since it "saved the genre" and.... It confirmed something I've been dreading for a long time. I'm stuck in the past, likely stuck in 2013. Genres have changed, standards have changed, discussions have changed.... I'm left behind, barely able to keep up with anything. I mean I did join in on a few fan subbing projects (Steel Jeeg, Ultra Nyan, Trider G7, Koseidon, GR: Giant Robo, Daiohja, Izenborg, Danguard Ace, a few random others) believing someone else would need to watch these to make like seem normal for them. I needed that in 2017; Juspion, Goseiger, Go-Busters, and Ultraman Geed briefly reignited why I like what I like.... Until it didn't.

Well, I'll just drop my anime 3x3 and 6x6 here. I missed most of you guys. Maybe we'll see each other again, depends if I can figure out how to use Tor and get a computer with more memory that 2 spare gigs. That's not happening for a while.

SPOILER: Show

And I don't have autism, Fireball. I still remember the grave dancing. It feels good to finally post that after eight years.

Alright Azrael, come harvest me off this rock already. Been listening to manifestation beats and frequencies for a while. My soul could really use the escape from these meat shackles called flesh.

[UrsusArctos]

My soul could really use the escape from these meat shackles called flesh.

Dude, if you're thinking of killing yourself, please don't. This is probably going to sound as dumb as hell, but you can be happy again.

[FreakyFilmFan4ever]

Eight years ago in August I promised myself I would never be happy again and I succeeded. There's no reason to hide it anymore. It's me, Twin Drive Sigma Aquarion.

Um, well.... welcome back? It's good to see an old face on this forum, but we all kinda wish that you had gone through the proper channels to get your old account back up and running.

It's nice talking to you again. I did try this. I rewatched The Land Unknown back in July and it made me realize "I used to enjoy this and now I don't." It's the main reason I never rewatch things the vast majority of the time, I knew at some point it'd be bad for the movies and shows I used to enjoy. Same thing happened over the tokusatsu genre, I'm afraid to rewatch anything. I don't even enjoy anime anymore. I recently finally caved into peer pressure and gave Symphogear a shot since it "saved the genre" and.... It confirmed something I've been dreading for a long time. I'm stuck in the past, likely stuck in 2013. Genres have changed, standards have changed, discussions have changed.... I'm left behind, barely able to keep up with anything. I mean I did join in on a few fan subbing projects (Steel Jeeg, Ultra Nyan, Trider G7, Koseidon, GR: Giant Robo, Daiohja, Izenborg, Danguard Ace, a few random others) believing someone else would need to watch these to make like seem normal for them. I needed that in 2017; Juspion, Goseiger, Go-Busters, and Ultraman Geed briefly reignited why I like what I like.... Until it didn't.

Monster movies seem to be making a come back in Japan ever since Godzilla 2014 raked cash back in 2014, so there's some exciting stuff to look forward to if you're still into it. The trailer for Godzilla Singular Point dropped on YouTube the past couple of days, and it kinda gave me that feeling I had as a kid getting excited for the release of Godzilla: The Animated Series in 1999. (Though, with a more recognizable Godzilla design, obviously.)

Honestly, your emotions are reflective of something other than your interest in kaiju flicks. From my perspective (and I might be wrong about this), I think you've lost interest in the genre because you're dealing with some depression. If you wanna PM me here or DM me on Twitter (link in the signature) to talk about it, please do.

[robersora]

I don't even enjoy anime anymore. I recently finally caved into peer pressure and gave Symphogear a shot since it "saved the genre" and.... It confirmed something I've been dreading for a long time. I'm stuck in the past, likely stuck in 2013.

Dude.
You're hilarious. Your comedic timing is spot on, please never, never, never kill yourself and keep writing and maybe try stand-up? Just please try to stay within the rules while being here, and we're golden

[silvermoonlight]

I think I lost a lot of my memories and my focus from covid. That and many of my interests including monster movies seems to be dead. Sort of sad I actually kept my promise from eight years ago, I never did manage to be happy.

Have you considered maybe writing or drawing your own works? Maybe though doing this you will remember what it was that inspired about them what made you desire them to start with as sometimes creating new things can help spark other interests, plus if media won't give you the stories you desire then create the ones you want.

[robersora]

It saddens me to say that after a string of terror attacks in France, tonight Austria's capital Vienna was hit by a terror attack. As it was the last evening before second lockdown there were a lot of people out and about and all indicators point to an antisemitic attack.

[silvermoonlight]

It saddens me to say that after a string of terror attacks in France, tonight Austria's capital Vienna was hit by a terror attack. As it was the last evening before second lockdown there were a lot of people out and about and all indicators point to an antisemitic attack.

I'm so sorry this is happening I hope you are safe and well as this whole thing sounds terrifying.

[robersora]

I don't live in Vienna any longer, and sadly we are used to this kind of thing in Europe by now... But it still kinda hits different when it's your own capital, a place you've lived in... Thanks for your condolences tho!

[Justacrazyguy]

I don't live in Vienna any longer, and sadly we are used to this kind of thing in Europe by now...

I mean, it still only happens in big cities and the like. Very tiny consolation, but they are still unusual occurrences. Shouldn't happen at all but what can you do.

Hope the police sorts it out in the best way possible.

No cases in Portugal, although I'm almost afraid of jinxing it just by mere mention.

[silvermoonlight]

A member of my family has had to quarantine due to a Covid-19 scare as someone they went out on sight with had it and tested positive a few days later, the upside of this story my family member tested negative but still has to do the 10 days quarantine regardless.

What saved my family member was wearing a mask along with the tested positive person also wearing one my rant here is just wear a mask it does work and will protect the people around you if you catch it.

[Berserker]

A lot of people in my family got tested positive including my mom, grandma and one of my uncle and even though their age, they managed to survive miraculously. While my mom and uncle's case went comparatively well, my grandma had to be under intense care. They obviously used masks which even though failed to protect them, they obviously protected us as we were the one to take care of them,being very close to them during their illness and time of recovery.
So yeah,please wear masks and maintain social distance.

[Gus Hanson]

Currently suffering a toothache after biting a hard slice of pizza crust for lunch. And I can't count on a dentist at this date because of the corona taking priority at doctors' spaces.

[Shamsiel-kun]

Informational message for programmers: If you need unique ids for something and those ids need to be robust enough that no mix up can ever happen yet the same data must always result in the same id, don't bloody spin your own pseudo-cryptographic pseudorandom function that has a glaring failure waiting to happen at an inopportune moment because it only checks whether the inputted values are None instead of checking for invalid ones FFS.

Well, tomorrow is my day off, and my boss can go fix his own mess.

[Blockio]

Oh jeez. That read like a nightmare start to finish. And yeah.... best to leave that to the guy who broke it in the first place