Bomby von Bombsville wrote: My feelings for her are the same, but it would be foolish for me to think I could turn that situation around....
I'm going to at least be working on art. Writing, music, filmmaking - whatever I'm inspired to do. I'm going to read more books instead of moping around. I'm going to eat better food and exercise regularly, and finally put some damn weight on my tiny frame.
2013 was the worst year of my life, bar none. Nothing happened. Obviously the turning of the year isn't going to magically change everything, but perhaps that symbolic change can be the inspiration for growth... eventually meet someone else. Hopefully by that time I'll be a more attractive person.
I'm sorta new to these forums, and I don't really feel like it's my place to talk to others about personal stuff, BUT I've been checking up on the off-topic section daily, so it bums me out when others here are seriously bummed out too...I've gone through a lot of junk with girls in the past too. I don't like giving examples about bogus situations I've gone through because everyone's different, so I'll just say that, like, 3 years of my life were spent hating myself for not being with whatever girl I really dug at the time. I couldn't sleep, bored my few friends to death pining over them, etc.
And there were times when I met really rad girls, but I was so bummed out about other girls that I didn't try to start a new relationship that might have worked out well for me. So, basically what I'm trying to say is just go forward.
Reading and writing are great to kill time, and doing them make you feel better about yourself. A lot of writers write because they have no one else to talk to but the people who will one day read their work. Writing and reading hard to do, and they're lonely acts, but at the end of the day writing a story or journaling or finishing a book just make you feel good about yourself(at least for me and the people I talk to).
Even though the end of the year doesn't really mean anything, I've found myself cursing the past year as well.
And my frame is tiny too, bro. When I wear a big coat I look like a bean bag chair with stick legs. Oh well.