Here I am with an idea I think
is original, but likely already thought of by others.
However, I'm afraid that it hasn't risen above the noise floor of mere description,
so I will attempt to codify the basic structure of the concepts I've been mulling over
in the hopes that we'll see someone take this and develop it to its natural conclusion.
God knows I can't be bothered to finish a story around this, but I hope this will change
once it's publically shared.
Progenesis of the Idea wrote:Almost a year ago I was looking for some visual novels, preferably ren'ai adventures where you try to get the girl.
I eventually stumbled upon a title I initially thought was a admiration club: Katawa Shoujo. The game luckily was
just finished, and was free to boot. Piqued by its originality, I downloaded it and gave it a try.
First I went down Hanako's route. It didn't seem to affect me, but the game was working its magic laying the groundwork
for the next route I tried: Lilly. At first everything seemed to be going perfect, and I was developing a relationship with
a girl I could only dream of being with. Then, the hand of fate quickly threatened to separate her from my grasp.
After learning of her eventual emigration, I felt sad and desperate. I needed to convince her to the contary any way
I possibly could. I was energized. Her route brought back feels I haven't felt in years.
I succeeded in my goal, but that's not what eventually brought me here. I then watched a music video someone thought
would go with Lilly, and that is when I generalized my epiphany and everted my worldview. I already knew that I
absolutely love chasing women that seemed perfect, and were guaranteed candidates for stillborn
romances. What was at the core of that was the carrot-and-stick philosophy. I didn't give a damn about
who they were, just that they were impossible goals. That was enough for me. It made me feel alive.
I quit my search for love the day I realized the game I was playing 5 years ago. Today, I've reconsidered, but the
existing feels from days past have interested me to no end for an additional reason; I also realized I actually like
feeling the drama of not just out-of-reach romance, but any "good" or "bad" situation, on a conscious
level, and beyond the endorphin rush such situations give rise to. Any contrast from "normal" was a
welcome change from my daily life. In short, I was developing into a "feels connoseiur", and from that
realization forward, I would never be the same.
What's this have to do with Instrumentality? wrote:Mind you, I haven't synchronized completely with this separate self, or else I'd be well gone from this earth.
I had to channel these feels somehow, both to preserve my sanity and explore previous concepts in a new way.
So I scoured my mind and the internet for ways to crystallize these new, unusual thoughts into a new type of character.
He will be built on these phrases:
"It's the journey that matters, not the destination."
"The more misfortune you experience, the happier you can become."
"Life is the most precious experience you can have. You don't know just how fortunate you are to be alive."
"If you haven't risked anything, you haven't lived."
I will introduce ever so slight perversions to the interpretation and implementation of these phrases
that will turn an otherwise normal character into someone much darker, yet at the core, the character
shares the same spirit we humans have, the spirit that answers the question, "Why do we live?"
Here is a summation of what this character will be:
He won't be Shinji. He won't run away from reality. He will dive straight into the thick of it, warts and all,
and love every single second of it. Whether it be a tragedy or a miracle, he will relish it, even if he has
to be the one to instigate it. He lives for the feels, and will do anything to experience ever-extreme hills
and valleys that life brings, because he finds that what we call happiness is an illusion, and what we strive for
is to feel, the whole reason we even endeavor in the first place. To feel so much until nothing else matters,
until the essence of experience can be captured and the world made redundant.
He is duality incarnate. No one ever faces nadir towards his nature until the moment where it's too late, and
few look longer than the instant it takes to change themselves.
He will become the Blessed Agonies and the Blessed Joys. When he answers, it will always be the same phrase: "I feel".
His way of thinking is an imperfect solution towards Instrumentality. There are some easy counterarguments to his philosophy.
The eventual end (or lack thereof) to his spiral towards insanity will be governed by the motivations and fragmented philosophies
of him and other characters who try to convince him not to pass the manic event horizon.The question will be: How shall all of this play out?
Sorry for making an extremely long first post. I hope to work towards saying a lot with so little in the future, especially when I do need to explain what I think.[/i]