In order to salvage what remains of my reputation around these parts, I think that it is important for me to state that I never believed that Shinji was entirely homosexual, nor did I believe that he consciously wished to pursue any physical relationship with Kaworu. If the events depicted in the relevant episodes make anything crystal clear, it is that while Kaworu may have been willing, Shinji was not.
All of that having been said, it was my initial supposition that like a great many young males, Shinji was not entirely sure what it was that he wanted. Many of you have stated that his 'attraction' to Kaworu was was merely because Kaworu was the only one who had offered him what seemed to be unconditional love. This is true, in as far as it goes, but it does not preclude the possiblity that Shinji may have some same-sex tendancies.
To those of you who would choose to point out that Shinji pleasured himself to the sight of the comatose Asuka, I believe that you are ignoring the complex psychological components of that scene. Consider that Asuka had seemed to wield a power over Shinji, which may or may not have been sexual attraction - I prefer to believe that it is not, but I'll go into that later. Consider also that she is the one who tends to come off best when the two of them have a power struggle.
Hence, Shinji's act was, to my mind, more a symbolic one, almost of contempt. To my mind, it is a way in which (in his own mind) he can 'even the score' by performing an humiliating act upon her. I might add that such an act is enshrined in Japanese tradition as a ritual humilitation. Or so I read somewhere anyway, who knows really?
To those who would point to his desparate, words of only a few minutes prior to this event, I would say that it is not the case that he truly meant those words the way that he said them, more that it is a measure of his desperation and mental anguish that he would turn to Asuka, his arch-nemesis, for emotional support. Far from his love interest, I see her role in the story as an antagonist, which is a theory likely to see me challenging Knives for the title of "Least Popular Theory". (J/K Knives
Surely it would be accepted at least that Asuka has never, not even a single time, even attempted to be nice to Shinji? She has humiliated him, berated him, accused him of things which are sometimes true, and other times horrendous distortions of the truth. They are not, to my mind, a romantic pairing in any way, shape or form. It is to be expected that Shinji knows this, deep down, but he has very little in the way of female company of his own age, and it is my contention that this is what drives him to his own occasional caring acts, in regard of Asuka. After all, I have stated that I do not believe that he is homosexual, at least not entirely so. I do believe that he is one of the most confused boys ever to grace the small screen, on the other hand.
In further support of Shnji's lack of genuine interest in Asuka, I would point to the schoolyard sequence from Episode 9. Most of the other students are fawning over Asuka, but Shinji is little more than polite. Shinji is the type of boy who will always be polite and smile, unless he has a specific reason to do otherwise, so nothing should be read into that, in my opinion. Later in the episode it is repeatedly made clear that the kiss notwithstanding, Shinji's antipathy towards Asuka is equal to hers towards him.
As to that kiss, I don't pretend to know what was on his mind at that point, but I don't think that this one incident should be allowed to outweigh the masses of evidence that Shinij simply can't stand
I hope that with this post I have taken the first, stumbling steps towards demolishing this myth that Shinji cares for Asuka in any real way. He has expressed feelings of tenderness towards her, but surely it is apparent that he does not truly feel that way, and the things that he has said are purely a product of his confusion and the lack of other appropriate figures upon which to project his desire.
Call me delusional if you like, but to those of you who have, kindly do not insult me, or my sexuality, when you are not even certain what it is. Such things are frowned upon in meatspace, and they should not be permitted in cyberspace in my opinion. Disagree with me, if you must. Call me an idiot, if you will, but please do not resort to offensive and inflamatory remarks about sexuality.Originally posted on: 07-Nov-2004, 08:37 GMT