Looking for a (deleted?) video essay

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I remember watching it a couple years ago (2022) and it went really deep into the philosophical inspirations of Evangelion.

One memorable section was about explaining the LCL and connecting it to the womb & they kept mentioning the "aqua doctrinae". This is a concept that Jung talks a lot about.

I've scoured every analysis on YouTube and the closest I've found is "Intimacy and it's discontents" but that's not exactly it. None of the video essays I found have any mention of Jung, the Aqua Doctrinae, water of doctrine, or any of these keywords.

It was one of the best video essays I've watched so if anyone knows what I'm talking about / can point me to it, I'd really appreciate it!