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I've accepted that Crying Man just isn't ready to happen, and so I've allowed myself to scratch the same general itch with a new, much shorter story. For those who don't know my tendencies, I absolutely love the idea that Dr. Katsuragi was the donor for the contact experiment with Adam. It has IMHO fascinating repercussions for both characters and lore alike. This story will explore both angles with, I hope, equal levels of passion, focusing on the two (extant) characters most impacted
The "MisaKawo" labeling implies this is an incest fic, and, while there definitely is an element of that, my goals are much broader. All sexual elements are (I hope) grounded within a larger framework of identity, (recovery from) trauma, interpersonal trust, and the like. I don't condone incest or hebephilia IRL, but bizarre and convoluted fictional situations like this one are wonderful grounds for the exploration of uncomfortable topics.
This fic acts as the hypothetical prequel to a complete rewrite of my unfinished "BAD END" fic. One of the totally on-point criticisms of "BAD END" was that my interpretation of Adam was not justified through any actual buildup, and she easily came off as completely severed from Kaworu. For years I've mulled over a way to solve the problem while mentally updating my so-called "BAD END" scenario (the gist of which is: instead of being killed by Shinji, Kaworu successfully resurrects as Adam), and this story is what I've come up with. This isn't to say that everybody will be happy with my interpretation of Kaworu, because, oh boy, they won't be; but since this is an effort to explore angles and topics left largely or completely ignored in the original work, I make no apologies.
For now, I'm going to concentrate on completing FBLM. If I do, then perhaps a follow-up will materialize.