Postby Sachi » Tue Mar 03, 2026 3:08 am
Oh hey, I'm in my 30s now, almost 33. Crazy to realize that I joined this community 20 years ago. I should change my name to Sachi_33.
One thing I've realized being in my 30s is that everything they say about your 20s being a terrible roller coaster is true, the era of profound confusion as they say. But in your 30s things begin to click together in unique ways as the previous chaos and noise starts to make a little more sense, and you likewise begin to phase out the things in your life no that longer serve you and start really appreciating the things in life that you do cherish. Not to get too Hegelian, but it is almost reminiscent of the thesis/anti-thesis/synthesis model; your early youth and teenage years are when you develop a thesis on how to approach life, while your 20s and early adult years challenge your thesis in every way possible, but your 30s and beyond are when you have the opportunity to truly synthesize these models rather than rejecting one for the other. Let's just say I spent a lot of time beating myself up for some of the choices I felt I was forced to make in my 20s in order to survive, but as the world itself seems like it has also been falling apart over these several years, I began to recognize that the difficulties I was facing were not unique to my own situation, but were in fact the common material conditions everybody is facing right now and I need to adjust and adapt my own model accordingly.
My advice to others is to not let go of those childhood dreams, because we live in a world currently where so much seems to be going wrong. The so-called adults in the room are not better than you, and many of them are responsible for the current direction of things. It is up to you to forge your own path. Your drill is the drill that will pierce the heavens.