Postby BernardoCairo » Fri Jan 01, 2021 2:54 pm
@Zusuchan
I agree with some of what you said, but not all of it.
Firstly, I agree that Shinji was in a very fragile state during the events of Air and I'm not judging him as a despicable monster for doing what he did. For me, he was a 14 year old traumatized boy that wanted to find an easy solution to his problems in Asuka. An insecure pearson that was unable to form personal connections and was forced to kill because that's the only value society saw in him.
But this is the thing, expecting unconditional love from Asuka, as if she was a mere doll, did not address what was really torturing him. Shinji couldn't love himself and that was the problem he was trying to escape from. He only understood that after going through Human Instrumentality and rethinking a lot of stuff about himself and the others around him. For me, it was within Lilith that he finally went: "No, I'm tired of running away from my problems. I'm tired of coming up with simple and unrealistic solutions for them. I'm gonna accepted myself and reality from now on."
I think that Asuka went through a very similar path throughout that movie as well. In the end, she not only came out of it more willing to accept herself, but also to accept Shinji, with all of his insecurities and shortcomings, which after all are very similar to hers. Basically, she stopped to project herself into him, I believe.
Anyways, their relationship is really intriguing and way more complex that I could ever hope to explain in a simple post. For me, the original version of "Everything You've Ever Dreamed For", written by Anno, is the best way to describe their bound in just a few lines.
Just sit here and waste your precious time. When you want to do something, don't do it right away. Don't do it when you can. Read my posts instead. It's the only way to live a life without regrets.