Death Wasn't What I Expected
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- Joseph the PRPD
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Death Wasn't What I Expected
The moment I died was painful. Just because you die fast doesn't mean it's painless. Well, I don't know if my death was fast but it definitely wasn't slow to the point of torture. I was stabbed and the wound was fatal. It just happened as I was walking home. Some guy was running and when he came up to me he decided to stab me. Clearly this man wasn't mentally sound and was a serial killer. Perhaps I wasn't his first victim but this isn't about him. It's about me. As I fell to the ground with barely enough energy to scream my mind flooded with thoughts about friends, family, and the fact I wouldn't have a future. As with some situations, I thought about this through their perspective.
They would have no idea that I wouldn't be coming home that night and how worried they will be, especially due to the fact my cell had no service so there would be no way for them to contact me. I already knew how they'd react upon learning about my death, so that didn't phase me as much as the thought of them worrying about where I am not knowing of my fate. There's also the fact that my friends online may never know that I bled to death on the street. The people who I've recently begun to consider my friends and especially my best friend. I can't even imagine how my small group of friends would take my death. Finally, there was my future, now knowing I won't even have one. The small things I've dreamed of doing, the stories I'll never be able to enjoy, read, and watch, the fun that I can no longer have, being on my own or eventually finding someone to call my own and raising a daughter. They all seem like mere fantasies now.
In my final moments, I silently cried to myself. Not just because of the pain I felt but also because of the weight of those thoughts. The pain began to fade and I felt myself losing my grip on reality. No matter how hard I tried to fight to stay awake, to just hold a firm grip...
No matter what I did, no matter what I tried, no matter how hard I pushed I was dying and nothing could change that. No one was even around to call the paremedics. It just really sucks when a great and satisfying day ends like this, to say the least. At this point I couldn't even move and I couldn't take any more breaths of air. Just like that, I was dead.
As an Atheist, I didn't expect anything after death. Well, maybe some kind of afterlife that wasn't tied to any known religion but, still, for the most part I expected nothingness. You die and that's it. Considering how I'm narrating this clearly isn't the case and I was just surprised to find out, uh, what I "woke up" to. I mean, no matter what, anyone would be surprised but... holy shit.
They would have no idea that I wouldn't be coming home that night and how worried they will be, especially due to the fact my cell had no service so there would be no way for them to contact me. I already knew how they'd react upon learning about my death, so that didn't phase me as much as the thought of them worrying about where I am not knowing of my fate. There's also the fact that my friends online may never know that I bled to death on the street. The people who I've recently begun to consider my friends and especially my best friend. I can't even imagine how my small group of friends would take my death. Finally, there was my future, now knowing I won't even have one. The small things I've dreamed of doing, the stories I'll never be able to enjoy, read, and watch, the fun that I can no longer have, being on my own or eventually finding someone to call my own and raising a daughter. They all seem like mere fantasies now.
In my final moments, I silently cried to myself. Not just because of the pain I felt but also because of the weight of those thoughts. The pain began to fade and I felt myself losing my grip on reality. No matter how hard I tried to fight to stay awake, to just hold a firm grip...
No matter what I did, no matter what I tried, no matter how hard I pushed I was dying and nothing could change that. No one was even around to call the paremedics. It just really sucks when a great and satisfying day ends like this, to say the least. At this point I couldn't even move and I couldn't take any more breaths of air. Just like that, I was dead.
As an Atheist, I didn't expect anything after death. Well, maybe some kind of afterlife that wasn't tied to any known religion but, still, for the most part I expected nothingness. You die and that's it. Considering how I'm narrating this clearly isn't the case and I was just surprised to find out, uh, what I "woke up" to. I mean, no matter what, anyone would be surprised but... holy shit.
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"Life is becoming more and more indistinguishable from Onion articles." ~Monk Ed
"Oh my gods, that is awesome. I am inclined to forgive both Grant and the dub in general for that." ~Bagheera
"I don't try to engage in intelligent conversation here anymore."~Chee
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I just had an image of him waking to Shinji fapping
may the dead rest in peace.
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I hope that everything turns out okay where you are.
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Sephiroth: "Do you miss the Light?"
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Sephiroth: "Too close to the brightness, and you may get scorched."
Golbz:.............
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Sephiroth: "Do you miss the Light?"
Golbez: "Hmph...I merely have duties to fulfill."
Sephiroth: "Too close to the brightness, and you may get scorched."
Golbz:.............
Golbez: Your loss can strengthen you.
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And here I thought this was going to be a thread complaining about one of the Eva movies.
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Welcome back Joseph. I just wish your return had been on a happier note.
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"Happy people can be so cruel"- Claudia, Silent Hill 3
"everlasting, true love, I am yours"- Rule of Rose
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Well, that was...interesting. I think.
You're not the only one.
You're not the only one.
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Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. - Franz Kafka
Clones to the left of me, tsunderes to the right...and here I am, stuck in the middle with Shinji. - how I view my experience with Evangelion
-When it comes to Asuka/Shinji, pre-EoE is like moving Mount Everest and post-EoE is like moving the Olympus Mons. Either way, it's moving a mountain. It's just the size of said mountain.-
Hey, could be worse. You could still be in there, awake but unable to respond as your body falls apart, eaten from within by your gut microbes, then parasites or scavengers. Wee!
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^ Great...so in the end, we really are the "one" who is "many". And here I was, hoping for something more.
Evangelion fan since 15 October 2002, Evangelion fanfiction writer since 1 April 2004. (FFN) (AO3)
Current avatar: Don't mind Mr. Joel--after all, he didn't start the dumpster fire that is 2020.
Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. - Franz Kafka
Clones to the left of me, tsunderes to the right...and here I am, stuck in the middle with Shinji. - how I view my experience with Evangelion
-When it comes to Asuka/Shinji, pre-EoE is like moving Mount Everest and post-EoE is like moving the Olympus Mons. Either way, it's moving a mountain. It's just the size of said mountain.-
Current avatar: Don't mind Mr. Joel--after all, he didn't start the dumpster fire that is 2020.
Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. - Franz Kafka
Clones to the left of me, tsunderes to the right...and here I am, stuck in the middle with Shinji. - how I view my experience with Evangelion
-When it comes to Asuka/Shinji, pre-EoE is like moving Mount Everest and post-EoE is like moving the Olympus Mons. Either way, it's moving a mountain. It's just the size of said mountain.-
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