General RML Thread

child of Lilith · Postby **child of Lilith** » Mon Mar 05, 2012 3:14 am

xanderkh wrote:It's a beautiful day, the sun is shining and warm, winter has gone away, I only have a little bit of homework, and my London and Paris trip has been paid off.

Today....was a good day. :)

Excellent! Now you've got at least that squared away.

Dream · Postby **Dream** » Mon Mar 05, 2012 5:40 am

This might not seem like a RML, but it is to me.

Lately i've been thinking when reading some of my old posts or threads in my other forum, about how much nothing, almost nothing, how so little will be affected by my passing from this world. On how completely and ultimately pathetic and insignificant i am to the grand symphony.

This depresses me a little, yet it also gives a certain bliss and freedom.

If i were death, no one would care, some of them might be even happier, but that shouldn't be important, rather, i feel i am free to leave this life if i so desire.

Before i didn't kill myself because i though that would make my friend miserable (she told me such, and i have no reason to not believe her) or at least i told myself it was for that. But now... I don't think that is the case anymore, then again, i don't see death and dying or suicide in the same way the majority of people see it. I'm free to leave if i so desire. I feel like crying and smiling at the same time, both out of a cathartic beauty. Everything is so... Beautiful. I always found everything so beautiful when i was about to, or killing myself, heh.

This might sound depressing, but it really isn't depressing to me.

Also: On other news, today is art class day! :w00:

Defectron · Postby **Defectron** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 12:43 am

Today some phantom midgets visited me in the bathroom and it rocked I guess.

But yes maybe my house is haunted now which would be cool, as long as the midgets don't go stealing my stuff or messing with me. If they do I will visit my terrible vengeance upon them!

Aiko Heiwa · Postby **Aiko Heiwa** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 12:53 am

Defectron wrote:Today some phantom midgets visited me in the bathroom and it rocked I guess.

But yes maybe my house is haunted now which would be cool, as long as the midgets don't go stealing my stuff or messing with me. If they do I will visit my terrible vengeance upon them!

what

OT: I got called beautiful today. :)

Sgt. Griff · Postby **Sgt. Griff** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 2:10 am

Defectron wrote:Today some phantom midgets visited me in the bathroom and it rocked I guess.

You probably fell asleep into a state called hypnagogia, inducing hallucinations. A shame really, few more minutes and you would've been Lucid dreaming.

[Edit] Also: I got an email from Cartoon Network today.

First time that's happened in ages. Now I'm feeling good.

Defectron · Postby **Defectron** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 3:01 am

Sgt. Griff wrote:You probably fell asleep into a state called hypnagogia, inducing hallucinations. A shame really, few more minutes and you would've been Lucid dreaming.

I can't do that while I'm pooping. :rei_blush:

Sgt. Griff · Postby **Sgt. Griff** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 3:06 am

^Anything can happen in a dream...

Well my heart problem's gone, and I'm feeling as fit as a fiddle, so that's good at least.

Dream · Postby **Dream** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 5:36 am

I'm feeling... Good. Catharsed even. Free. The sun feels brighter. The horizon feels more open. The air feels... More pure.

Everything feels like it has been released and opened now.

You know? I feel like just walking into the sunset now, i'll just walk... To another city, to the end of the world if i could.

Defectron · Postby **Defectron** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 12:35 pm

Sgt. Griff wrote:^Anything can happen in a dream...

Yeah but my point is I was awake and pooping on the toilet at the time. If I could induce hypnogogics while I was pooping on the toilet life would be very different. Trust me this is something I have often tried unsuccessfully in the past numerous times to do and have never been able to get past the alpha state while awake.

Postby **ZapX** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 1:19 pm

Dream wrote:I'm feeling... Good. Catharsed even. Free. The sun feels brighter. The horizon feels more open. The air feels... More pure.

Is it wrong that I read this as Snagglepuss?

Aiko Heiwa · Postby **Aiko Heiwa** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 4:06 pm

ZapX wrote:Is it wrong that I read this as Snagglepuss?

CANNOT UNHEAR

OT: I told my mother about Viktor. She approves of me having a boyfriend.

Allemann · Postby **Allemann** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 5:30 pm

I'm taking a course on Marxian economics.

TehDonutKing · Postby **TehDonutKing** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 5:37 pm

I just took mankind's three greatest inventions, cheddar, muenster, and pepper jack, and ate all of them at once.

Dream · Postby **Dream** » Tue Mar 06, 2012 5:50 pm

ZapX wrote:Is it wrong that I read this as Snagglepuss?

lol, i don't know why it made you think of it and i barely even remembered what that was about, but his voice sounds funny so no, it's not wrong or anything, it's kinda funny even... No, it's extremely funny :lol:

Sgt. Griff · Postby **Sgt. Griff** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 2:51 am

Delicious orange, cranberry and banana muffins! :w00:

Tanks mummy.
But normally I do the baking around here.

Dream · Postby **Dream** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 3:08 am

Art Class today.

I can read so many things today.

KingXanaduu · Postby **KingXanaduu** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 3:23 am

Dream wrote:This might not seem like a RML, but it is to me.

Lately i've been thinking when reading some of my old posts or threads in my other forum, about how much nothing, almost nothing, how so little will be affected by my passing from this world. On how completely and ultimately pathetic and insignificant i am to the grand symphony.

This depresses me a little, yet it also gives a certain bliss and freedom.

If i were death, no one would care, some of them might be even happier, but that shouldn't be important, rather, i feel i am free to leave this life if i so desire.

Before i didn't kill myself because i though that would make my friend miserable (she told me such, and i have no reason to not believe her) or at least i told myself it was for that. But now... I don't think that is the case anymore, then again, i don't see death and dying or suicide in the same way the majority of people see it. I'm free to leave if i so desire. I feel like crying and smiling at the same time, both out of a cathartic beauty. Everything is so... Beautiful. I always found everything so beautiful when i was about to, or killing myself, heh.

This might sound depressing, but it really isn't depressing to me.

Also: On other news, today is art class day!

So, are you going to be okay dude?

Sorry for being a little late.

Dream · Postby **Dream** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 4:48 am

xanderkh wrote:So, are you going to be okay dude?

Sorry for being a little late.

I think... Yes. I'm always going to be ok, there's no memory that time doesn't consume nor pain that death doesn't erase. And since i know i'm not vital to anyone or anything, i know i can die and nothing will change, in a way that fills me with such peace and joy, i can die if i want to, i don't have to do this. In the end i guess i will do what i want to do, even if it might not seem so. Funny, but now i keep "i'm so disgusting" anyway.

And don't worry about being late, better late than never.

Tribblepoo · Postby **Tribblepoo** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 4:56 am

I have a cold, but I found my copy of Vagrant Story. I'll be happy for a while.

Trajan · Postby **Trajan** » Wed Mar 07, 2012 10:32 am

Because of standardized testing, seniors (like me) don't have to go to school until 11:30 which means I got to sleep in this morning which I badly needed.

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