[Fic] Love's Definition (Asuka/Rei)

[Omegagouki]

Just a little one-shot I wrote about two years ago... I don't post much so I thought, "why not?". Basically, an Asuka/Rei fic as it would really work out. I'm hoping it'll get a more critical response than it did on FFN. >>; Maybe I'll be posting my other Eva-related works here sometime.

Uh, in any case enjoy.... if you can.

Love's Definition

By Jason Winter

The sun had set and the moon and stars had come out over the fortress city, everything was silent, no Angel attacks, no red alerts, just peace and quiet.

Three figures sat on the grassy hills, looking up at the sky, contemplating reality yet again. Or at least two were, the other’s mind was a blank, for the most part, just there with the other two because that’s where they wanted to be.

The figures were a lanky, feminine boy with short, brown, almost black hair, and blue eyes, a feminine girl with long, fiery auburn hair and blue eyes, and a somewhat plain, very light colored skinned girl with short dark powder blue hair and blood-red eyes..

This had to be the third night in a row they were here, the first night sparked by what would be an insane experience for some, but completely normal for them day.

“Night three….” the boy said with a slight frown.

“Why the hell are here yet again, anyway?” the redhead complained, right eye twitching “Two days of this was enough…”

The boy wanted to respond with asking the redhead why she came along again in the first place, but his fear with confrontation with others kept him silent.

“You came with us again without saying a word, Pilot Soryu…” the blue-haired girl responded, her expression unchanging “Asking us why you came, it is pointless. Should you not have the answer?”

“Hey, no one asked what you thought, Wonder Girl. Besides, that was rhetorical! You think you’re so great, huh?”

The blue-haired girl did not respond this time.

“I asked you a question. Answer!”

“M-maybe you should calm down, Asuka…” the boy finally chimed in reluctantly, and suddenly began to get up “You might be right, though… why are we here again? I’m going home.”

“Suit yourself, Shinji,” Asuka replied, a little irked, as she watched him walk off “Ugh, nitwit.”

She turned to the other girl, who just simply blinked, face devoid of expression… well, almost.

“What’re you looking at, Wonder Girl?”

“You. Your outbursts are a little intolerable… You really should be a bit more professional, Pilot Soryu,” she replied matter of factly.

A roll of the eyes.

“Hmmph, whatever. You’re weird, you know that?”

“Weird?”



Asuka’s eyes rolled again.

“Well, yeah! You hardly ever speak, you almost never bat an eye for anything, you just sit there all stuck in your own little world. It would be surprising if you even had a thought train…”

A glance at the redhead.

“I have thoughts. I wonder about things, sometimes.”

“Heh, well, you never seem to show it. What is going on in that head of yours right now?”

The blue-haired girl blinked.

“Typical. Typical Rei Ayanami.”

Out came a simple, blunt response.

“I wonder… what is love?”

“You don’t know what love is?”, Asuka asked , raising an eyebrow, glancing at Rei.

“I know its definition, yes, but I don’t really know what it is.”

“So… you know what it is, but you’ve never felt it before? Yep, you’re weird alright.”

Rei once again looked at the sky.

“Can you tell me?”

“Well, love is when you see and/or know something that makes you feel happy. You can feel happiness, right?”

“At times…”

“Well, I suppose love is a bit different than normal happiness. It makes you feel kinda warm and stuff, when you’re around something you love.”

“Interesting.”

Asuka glared daggers at Rei.

“Interesting?! That’s all you have to say?!”

“Then maybe I do know what love is. I love the darkness, especially the nighttime. I love being a pilot. It gives me purpose. It is my purpose.”

Asuka blinked. Did Rei just say what she thought she said?!

“So… you enjoy piloting Evangelion?”

“Yes. My duties make me happy.”

“Heh… yeah, piloting an Eva takes passion. You have to have a feeling for it, a love… It seems we both do. Shinji… well, he doesn’t. I don’t know how that twit’s such a good pilot. He’s got no passion for it whatsoever.”

“He doesn’t have the passion, but he seems to have the talent despite that fact. He’s nice, although a bit slow and distant..”

“Feh…”

“Hmm.”

“So, what else do you love?”

“That is all.”

A twitch of the eyes and the raise of an eyebrow.

“You’re kidding, right?”

“Maybe, maybe not. I might love the Commander, and my fellow pilots…”

“The Commander?! Ew, he’s way too old for you, you know.”

Like she could speak for herself there. If anything, her infatuation with Kaji was just as bad.

A blink.

“I care for him, he cares for me. That is love, isn’t it?”

“Well, sort of, I guess. But really, Wonder Girl… So you care… for other pilots? You actually care about Shinji and I?”

“Maybe just a little.”

“Heh… I… didn’t think you cared at all, Rei. Well, professionally, maybe, but, actual caring, no.”

A question never thought possible.

“Do you care for me?”

“You’re annoyingly calm all the time. I would say I don’t care about you, but I might, only a little bit.”

“So you don’t love me…”

“…Uh, not really. Well, maybe, well, I really don’t know.”

“Fascinating. You say you don’t love, but you also say you might.”

Asuka couldn’t help but grimace.

“Don’t start getting all weird on me, Rei.”

“Is there a way to find out if you love someone?” Rei asked, suddenly shifting closer to Asuka.

A blush and a shudder as response…

“Talking to them, knowing them enough… Then there’s other things like kissing them and stuff, but--”

Before Asuka could finish her sentence, Rei kissed her lightly on the lips. Asuka freaked, shoving Rei away and scooting over, her face bright red.

”Why you… I can’t believe you did that! One, you should have let me finish, and two, I didn’t say anything about kissing me, and three, girls and girls aren’t supposed to do that. It’s… well, it’s wrong and weird!”

Rei didn’t seem to care.

“I see.”

Now Asuka was getting really irritated.

“I don’t love you. I care a LITTLE, but that’s all. Nothing more, Wonder Girl.”

“You said it was a way, though, Soryu.”

“Well, yeah, but… Not like that!”

“I’ve talked to you, I know you, so I did what you said next..”

Asuka glared at Rei once again.

“Whatever. Just don’t do that again.”

“It worked, though. I know now. I care for you a little. I do not love you. It would appear we feel the same way.”

“Well, if that’s how it works for you, fine. At least you won’t do that again.”

“Not at all.”

“Whatever, Wonder Girl. Just don’t get me involved in it. I’m going home. You… can do whatever you like.”

With that, Asuka walked off, and Rei looked at the night sky once more. She would not bring up the subject with Asuka again. But, as she looked at the sky and her thoughts churned, maybe she did love Asuka, she thought. But Asuka didn’t love her, so, there was no more need to think about it. Besides, it would only interfere with her duties.

Meanwhile, somewhere else, Asuka meandered into a certain apartment, where Shinji, a woman, and a penguin awaited her return. She said nothing, and looked at the sky from the window. She didn’t love Rei. Did she? No. Preposterous. She turned, and sat down. Curry and ramen for dinner again… She hated them. She hated everything but herself and piloting. That was how life worked for her. No more need to think about it.

Both girls soon forgot their conversation that night. It was never mentioned to anyone, and if they had remembered, in the end, they would have been fine with that.

…Or would they?

The End

[Trigger's Elysium]

Don't read fanfiction, but I skimmed through it and saw that it was shoujo ai, so you win by default.

[Omegagouki]

Don't read fanfiction, but I skimmed through it and saw that it was shoujo ai, so you win by default.

lulz, thx.

No, really. Thank you for your comment.

[Omegagouki]

...Had to fix the formatting on this one, too. But why am I posting a new reply to this? I'm releasing the lemon version of this story that I've never released until now. Rommel didn't get in trouble for posting lemon content, so I'll chance it.

Love’s Definition (Lemon Version)

Edit: Posted on AFF due to advice.

Edit 2: Taken off of AFF because I posted the unfinished version there. Now I have to write the Rei returning the favor part all over again!!! :x

[chee]

EDIT: Where'd the "delete" function go?

[Sailor Star Dust]

I skimmed thru this, and it does win by default. ;)

One warning Omega, Tines will probably give your lemon part of this fic an "acid trip" (garbled words), so you might want to host that on a place like aff dot net and let us know it's there. :) It seems like links to places are fine provided it's off-site. (I think.)

@ Reichu, me thinks there needs to be a Rules section for the forums have the "adult content or not?" issue addressed.

[V]

I oppose putting adult content directly on the site. Making a post going "hey, check out my adult-rated fanfic hosted on another site" is fine, but it cannot be on the site itself.

[THE Hal E. Burton 9000]

V, there are a few MOAR of these on this site

:search:

[Omegagouki]

Advice taken. Now in a handy-dandy link to AFF.

Edit: Wait, shit... the file I uploaded to AFF didn't have the part with Rei returning the favor in it, I added that when I posted to the forum... and I DELETED the text when I made the edit to the link... :x

[Reichu]

I oppose putting adult content directly on the site.

We're all adults here, aren't we? ::p

I know I don't care anywhere near as much as Eva Monkey or V. I'd make practically anything except humorlessly derogatory / gross pr0n technically legal if I had my way.

[Omegagouki]

Sure, now a mod gives it an okay and I've already made the edits and posted the unfinished version on the off-site and lost the rest due to making the edit. Damn my haste!

[Reichu]

"If I had my way" -- Monkey and V can be expected to provide resistance to any dreams I might have. The official policy on so-called "adult" stuff was never fully resolved, though I'll be fighting puritanical policy to the end. NGE is a damned dirty anime, after all.

Something to argue about in the nonexistence hidden subforum.

[THE Hal E. Burton 9000]

nonexistence hidden subforum, Reichu?

[BobBQ]

I oppose putting adult content directly on the site.

I oppose you having any say in the matter.

[Sailor Star Dust]

The official policy on so-called "adult" stuff was never fully resolved, though I'll be fighting puritanical policy to the end. NGE is a damned dirty anime, after all.

I get the feeling Tines is somewhat against adult content on here, too. (Though I could be wrong, he is the Dirty Old Man of the Forums, after all.)

btw, I strongly agree with that statement you once made that if people can't handle adult content, they shouldn't be watching Eva.

@ Omega: I'm sorry! :( I was only trying to spare you the wrath that is Eva Monkey! Please don't beat me! *Hides*

@ Hal: It's nothing exciting. However, if you're that interested, then feel free to become a slav--I mean, member ;), of the Eva Geeks Wiki and help us.

[Omegagouki]

@ Omega: I'm sorry! :( I was only trying to spare you the wrath that is Eva Monkey! Please don't beat me! *Hides*

Nah, I won't do that, it was my fault for rushing to do it and forgetting to double-check the details. ^^;

[Mr. Tines]

I get the feeling Tines is somewhat against adult content on here, too. (Though I could be wrong, he is the Dirty Old Man of the Forums, after all.)

More for carrying out forum policy as I understood it.

Personally, I don't have problems with textual smut qua smut -- it's bad writing that offends me (and limes that really make me cringe).

Having gotten my introduction to "the internet is for porn" through the Usenet alt.sex groups, the thing they got right, and lemons haven't, is the idea of story codes for what sort of practices are indulged in, so one can filter to taste.

[Omegagouki]

I'd suggest a split or a "BACK ON TOPIC, BITCHES.", but, eh... The subject is on topic, in a way...

Really, adult content is a sore subject for many people, and I can and do understand that it's unwanted in certain places. If this was still Eva Monkey, I probably would have not posted the lemon at all, because I know Aaron's policies.

After all, it's why we call THAT BOARD "THAT BOARD" (that and the warez), and cannot mention the URL or site by name. But this is EGF, and things are a little more lax... though I think it best the THAT BOARD policy stays.

Anyway, I like porn and smut writings, but I also know there's a time and a place for such things.

Anyway, I may as well respond to a couple things:

Personally, I don't have problems with textual smut qua smut -- it's bad writing that offends me (and limes that really make me cringe).

Yeah, shitty writing irritates me, too. There's nothing more unsexy than a crappily-written piece of smut (well, and things that squick me, even in a well-written piece). As for limes, eh... I don't mind them.

Having gotten my introduction to "the internet is for porn" through the Usenet alt.sex groups, the thing they got right, and lemons haven't, is the idea of story codes for what sort of practices are indulged in, so one can filter to taste.

AFF.net seems to have a similar policy to that, as they have story codes and such, though I dunno if comparing it to the Usenet groups is accurate.

btw, I strongly agree with that statement [Reichu] once made that if people can't handle adult content, they shouldn't be watching Eva.

Some people are weird like that and are able to watch Eva and yet hate pr0n. But I agree, somewhat. While Eva isn't smutty, it does have adult themes and some nudity. If you can't handle it elsewhere, then you're a hypocrite.

But yeah, anyway, on the subject of the fic, I probably won't be posting the lemon version again as I really don't feel like writing stuff down all over again for a oneshot lemon. Besides, I really should be working on my more "important" works, anyway.

[Sailor Star Dust]

Yeah, shitty writing irritates me, too. There's nothing more unsexy than a crappily-written piece of smut (well, and things that squick me, even in a well-written piece). As for limes, eh... I don't mind them.

QFTMFT. You have NO idea how much of a pet-peeve of mine this is. I'm just glad my writing problems tend to be limited to formatting and not always describing things properly. ^^; I don't mind limes either as long as it's well-done like lemons are.

probably won't be posting the lemon version again as I really don't feel like writing stuff down all over again for a oneshot lemon.

....Would it help to know I thought Asuka being possessive of teh Rei was cute-cute-cute? :) (Yuri/Shoujo-ai= ALWAYS win regardless of the pairing.)

Anyway, Omega, I was able to properly read this fic this time through. I must say you did a great job, making the Asuka/Rei pairing work, but IN-Character, something people tend to forget at times. -_-
Great job!

Also, I thought it was cute how the three Children decided to make a ritual out of sitting by that hill together. Though it sucks how in the "clean version", they didn't become a couple...At least it fits in with the show that way.

@ Tines: What did you think of this fic and for that matter, what are your views on Asuka/Rei? (Feel free to PM me about that response if you don't wanna mention it here.)