Some of things I hope to address in this fanfic is about Asuka wanting to be an adult, her emotions for Kaji, her relationship with Kyoko, how she views Shinji, how she views Misato, etc. A decision I made, despite being most likely unpopular, is that I will integrate the instrumentality sequences where Asuka is on the "hell train" with Shinji as well as the kitchen scene with some more fleshed out thoughts within Asuka's mind. Yes, I'm in the camp that thinks that Asuka was herself and Shinji was himself in those scenes rather than it being a projection of Shinji's mind only. Gives me more creative will power to work with.
This will NOT be a gushy "Ohhh Asuka is meant for Shinji!" fanfic.
So here's my first chapter. The challenge will be how to transition between this sequence to Asuka seeing Shinji looking at Misato having sex with Kaji where she makes that, "it's just two adults licking each others' wounds!" comment.
SPOILER: Show
[Concurrent dialogue]
Asuka: "I'll kill you... I'll kill you... I'll kill you..."
Asuka's thoughts: "This isn't fair! I won't fail you mother!"
Asuka: "I'll kill you... I'll kill you..."
Asuka's thoughts: "Please help me! Don't die on me again! I WON'T GIVE UP MAM-"
Asuka: "I'll kil--"
An echo of pain went throughout her entire right arm that infected her whole body and soul. A sensation comparable to as if lightning had pierced sharply into an ocean, leaving behind reverberating ripples of unforgiven sorrow. Even for an Evangelion pilot, the pain induced feedback was too much to take in and thus sent Asuka into another unconscious state of mind.
[Context: Shortly after, the remaining eight lances impale Evangelion Unit 02]
Maya [over radio to Shinji]: Shinji! Asuka is...
Shinji [to himself]: There's nothing I can do...
[The cage rumbles and causes the Bakelite to crumble as the autonomous Evangelion Unit 01 breaks free and lunges its hand at Shinji]
Shinji: Mother!
[TITLE CARD: Asuka'S TRIUMPH]
[Transition to black]
"Mama..."
Asuka was consumed by a warm embrace, as if cradled in someone's arms. This feeling felt odd yet familiar; a voice faintly spoke.
“...st..n aus ...rem Be..lein au…”
It was surely German, but the voice rose and fell; it was like trying to make out each syllable while being under water.
“daß ..e ohne So.. und Mühe..”
Gradually, the soothing voice grew in Asuka's ear more concisely. It was clearly swaying to a tune of a lullaby.
“...fröhlich sind im Tageslauf?”
Through her hair, a soft stroke of a gentle hand glided across.
“Oh, my dear Asuka-chan!”
The child's eyes opened as luminous light flooded in. She focused her vision, and outlines of shapes became less blurred and more defined until a face was visible. The luscious brown hair draped over her shoulder and hung above Asuka's face. Her blue eyes mirrored into the other as each of their gazes met with widened glee.
"Mama!!"
Excitement and relief filled the air, as Asuka lunged upward and embraced her mother in a tight hug. Bliss, no, something more intense than that, engulfed Asuka as her mother returned the warmly embrace back.
“My my! You’re so full of life and a bundle of joy for me!”
Kyoko loosened her hold on Asuka, and gave her another reassuring look into Asuka's face.
"You won't ever leave me, right mama?"
"Of course not, dear! I'll always be by your side. Now, Asuka-chan, I'll be back soon, but I have to head off to the lab for an important assignment," Kyoko rose up and was getting ready to make for the door.
"Lab? Assignment? What do you mean?" There was a slight quiver in the inflection of Asuka's voice. Kyoko crouched down to her daughter's level after noticing the worry in her questions. She gave a warm smile and said,
"It's okay, dear, I'm simply doing something to better our future, your future especially! If you must know, I'm participating in a Contact Experiment. The details are hard to dive into..."
Asuka's heart sank the moment Kyoko mentioned "Contact Experiment" and the rest of the words became background noise.
"...anyway dear, I have to go for now," Kyoko said as she rose up again and made for the door. Asuka opened her mouth, but nothing came out, like a deer caught in the headlights. Time slowed down as Asuka tried to reach out to her mother, but Kyoko became a whispy blur that was intangible. The door opened and Kyoko vanished, leaving behind a sharp slam that shook Asuka back into awareness of what happened. She rushed to the door but stopped herself from opening it.
Some notes:
I Googled German lullabies and chose one randomly that seemed relevant:
Weißt du, wieviel Kinder frühe
stehn aus ihrem Bettlein auf,
daß sie ohne Sorg und Mühe
fröhlich sind im Tageslauf?
Gott im Himmel hat an allen
seine Lust, sein Wohlgefallen;
kennt auch dich und hat dich lieb,
kennt auch dich und hat dich lieb.
[English:
Do you know how many children
Wake up early from their little beds,
Who are without worry and sorrow
And happy during the day?
God in Heaven has everybody’s
Pleasure and welfare in mind;
He knows you and loves you too,
He knows you and loves you too.]
Thoughts so far?